I hold sadness in my lungs
Feels like gasping for breath every time I’m sucker punched
By the weight of it
I hold anger deep into my spine
It ignites the entire length of it
Feels like hell
Feels like heaven
Just to feel again
I hold fear in my jugular
Exposed and open everyday
When he asked me where love was
I laughed
Felt the maggots in my intestines (anxiety) wiggle to remind me this was
NotSafeNotSafeNotSafeNotSafeNotSafe
He anchored his eyes onto mine with a look
Not quite worry (tips of his toes)
But not yet apathy (behind his knee cap)
and
My breast bone (Flight response) aches like it will explode
He gets mad (his sternum)
Where do you keep love
The human body seems infinite and it is always hard to realize
We
are
not
When you are full
you are full
Where do you keep love
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