Twelve seasons, 269 episodes, 11,029 minutes worth of "Grey's Anatomy" and I was #TeamMerDer the entire time. Shonda, I will never forgive you for ruining one of the best showmances I have ever seen. If you don't believe me that Meredith and Derek were complete goals, maybe you will after this list.

1. The candle house scene:

By far my absolute favorite scene in "Grey's."

2. All the classic elevator scenes:

Making out, fighting, talking or ignoring each other every episode was bound to have these two in an elevator for some reason.

3. The BEST elevator scene:

"When a crisis happens, you don't freeze. You move forward. You get the rest of us to move forward. Because you've seen worse. You've survived worse. I'm not going to get on a knee. I'm not going to ask a question. I love you Meredith Grey, and I want to spend the rest of my life with you."

4. When Derek saved Meredith:

OK, this is classic "Prince charming to the rescue" type stuff.

5. "Now you've completely lost your mind.. You're drawing on the wall!"

6. The first night at Joe's.

"I'm just a girl in a bar." The best part? She didn't remember his name the next morning.

7. The Post-it Note vows:

"Love each other, even when we hate each other. No running. Take care when old, sick and smelly. It's forever."

8. Zola:

OK, I didn't think they could get any better... then I saw them as parents.

9. Eye for an eye:

That time Mer was ready to take a bullet for him... literally.

10. Their goodbye:

In an unfamiliar hospital, when chasing cars started playing and tears filled my eyes, flashbacks of their perfect relationship took over the screen.

So R.I.P Derek, I will always envy this twisted love story and I will forever be #TeamMerDer.