Sounds crazy right?!

I don't want a wedding but here's why

1. I don't want the headache of it all.

I don't want to be completely absorbed for months by plans, invitations, and decorations. That is putting more on my plate than I wish to digest.

2. THE GUEST LIST

That was a disaster from the very beginning. We either had barely 20 people to send invitations to or I was going to send one to every person I have ever met in my entire life in order to avoid leaving someone out.

3. Bridesmaids

This was harder than I thought it would be. Truthfully, I don't keep a ton of close friends. I have 3. If I put all 3 of them into the wedding, 1) how do I pick my favorite person to be a maid of honor?! 2) I don't want to rank my friends on such a level of "you stand right beside me. you are one person down. you kinda suck today so you go at the end." 3) I had a dress picked for each girl and I put a lot of thought into it. I took into consideration each of their individual insecurities, their best features and their level of comfort. BUT I don't want to have my friends buy a dress they most likely will never wear again.

4. I would rather take an amazing vacation.

Let's face it, weddings are expensive. I would rather not spend that money on a vacation. Call me stingy, call me selfish, but I don't want to pay $20 per plate for these people that I really don't care that much about. Just call me Rude Ruthie for that one.

5. Weddings are a way to get gifts.

I really don't care about gifts. Materialistic things mean nothing to me.I didn't have a house warming and I don't want bridal showers. I don't want people to think they have to bring a gift and watch me walk down the isle in a gown. It seems pointless to me.

6. I hate stress.

I stress about stress before there is anything to stress over. Then I realize there is no cause for stress and guess what?! I stress about my lack of stress. I couldn't handle the amount of stress that comes along with planning and executing a wedding. Props to those women that do though, yall are amazing.

7. Weddings feel cliche to me. They lack intimacy

If anything, we were going to have a very small wedding with just family. We ditched that idea as well but huge weddings just feel non-personal to me. This day is for me and my husband. I want to spend time with him and frankly I don't want to walk around and talk to people I don't know that well.

8. I want the day I marry my soon to be husband to be special and personal for only us.

I know that is selfish. I want it to be our time to spend together. We are so caught up in jobs, school, and his business that it's a rare occasion that we get to run away and spend time together. I want to take full advantage of my time with him.

So, weddings aren't for everyone. It isn't the route I want to take. I am running away, turning off the phones and enjoying my soon to be husband. He's amazing and I want to take that time to soak up all the love he is willing to give my clingy self. I want to see the scenery and feed random deer even though you're not supposed to. I want to wear baggy sweatshirts that hide the fact that I ate 10 pounds worth of breakfast.

Don't worry, though, I am taking pictures in my wedding dress and will share those with the world. That line is for you, mom.