Whenever I feel like I don't look right in a certain outfit because of my weight, everyone loves to tell me how skinny I am and how I fall under the category of thin.
And don’t get me wrong, I know I’m not fat. But at least 60 percent of the time, I'm not a fan of this "skinny" body that I came in. Of course, there are days when I feel great and confident in my body, yet I still don't LOVE being skinny for various reasons:
1. It's Easy To Tell When You’ve Gained Weight
You can always see the little bump that your stomach is starting to make over your waist, or even when your love handles start to get thicker. It’s honestly awful because every little addition to your body goes unnoticed.
2. So It’s Easy To Feel Bad When You Ate More Than You Should
Even though you may be skinny, you still overeat when we're anxious just like most people. But since everyone tells you how lovely your figure is, you don’t want to ruin that by indulging in a food that you'll regret and which will show on your body later.
3. As Well As When You’re Told You Don’t Eat Enough
"Is that really all you’re having? That's nothing," is what they all say. Most of the time you tend to get full very easily, which is why food orders with big portions intimidate you. Who wants to waste money on stuff they won’t finish? But still, everyone tells you how you should be eating more at the dinner table, or how little you eat is unhealthy when in actuality, you physically cannot eat more than you already have.
4. People Think You’re Dumb For Feeling Insecure About Your Body
You often worry that your thighs are too big and that your hips are too wide in that bikini pic you want to post on Instagram. But whenever you tell your friend this, they just roll their eyes. But in the end, you're a girl too and you're entitled to just as many body and self-insecurities as the rest.
5. You Feel Like You Don’t Have A Right To Feel Bloated
Feeling bloated doesn't really feel like an option to you. You know that your body doesn't actually look puffy, so you know you don’t have a right to complain. Therefore whenever you actually feel bloated, you feel like you can only complain about it to yourself.
6. You Feel Like You Have No Figure
Even though some of your friends may be jealous of you because you're thinner than they are, they have the better body. They’re the one’s with the better-looking butts, legs, arms, and hips, while you continue to just be there looking the way you are, thin and flat with no shape whatsoever.
7. Things Still Don’t Fit Right
Whether it be shoes, tops, or pants, clothes seem to never work on you. When you wear the same top as your friend, her boobs look bigger in it than yours. Or you need to go and get your pants hemmed because they are still too long on you. All in all, whatever curves you may actually have, it’s tough to find jeans or a shirt that actually make them show.
8. You Bra Size Never Changed in the 9th Grade Like Your Friends
In fact, you didn't even start wearing a bra until 9th grade. While you were finding the best bra and the best push-up throughout your first year of high school, your friends were making their way to a C/D cup when you finally made it and continue to stay at an A cup.
9. You Still Fit In The Kid’s Section
With no surprise, one of your college/university sweaters is from the kids' section. Even though that’s a blessing in disguise because of how cheap the price may be, it’s embarrassing that you still continue to buy Converse that are from this section too. Also, it kind of sucks because there aren’t as many styles that you like in the kids' section, but you tell yourself it’s fine.
10. Being Called Skinny Or Slim When You See Yourself As Average
You don’t really see your body as skinny or slim, but rather just ordinary. You don’t notice anything about your body that sticks out, and you don’t enjoy being called skinny or slim. Plus the concept of categorizing women by their physical size also pisses you off.
Just like any other girl, you're still in the process of accepting the body you currently have. And even though that body may follow under the "Skinny" and "Slim" category, you can be proud of it while also being hard on yourself for it, as long as there is some variation.