I promise you that I'm not angry.
Sometimes my sadness can come across as anger, but I promise you that I'm not. I know that it's hard for you to believe this, but trust me on this one. I've spent many nights thinking about how I lost you to the boy you love, and their is no way on earth I could be angry at you for that. Finding love is difficult, and you were one of the lucky ones who found the magic.
I promise that I am always hoping for the best.
It may help you sleep at night knowing that you have officially written off someone who doesn't want the best for you, but I promise that I always do. Your happiness is more important than anything to me. I was lucky enough to have you as a best friend who would stay up late and drink wine with me, or hand me the tissues when my tears were falling like theirs no end. How could I not hope the best for someone who has been such an important part of my life?
I promise that I'll be there if he ever leaves.
I hope to never see the tears in your eyes if he ever walks out the door, but I promise you, I'll be here to dry your tears and binge watch Grey's Anatomy until the pain stops. I know that you think I would never want to be there for you if that ever happened, but I promise I will be.
I promise that I really don't want him to leave.
It seems impossible to grasp your mind around the idea that I actually do like your boyfriend, but I promise you that I do, and I promise that I hope he stays with you forever. Even if it means that I'll no longer have my friend to FaceTime when I'm scared to walk into my dark house.
I promise that I'll be there if he stays.
The idea that we'll ever get back to normal seems impossible, but I promise that I'll be here if you ever change your mind. It may take a couple weeks before we can go back to gossiping about the girls who think they're so cool, or that weird guy you dated when you were a freshman, but I'll be here if you ever come around.
I promise to never let you feel the way I do.
Please don't take this as a stab, because I mean it with love. I would never want the person I shared so many laughs with, to be lonely when she needs someone most.
I promise to keep in touch... even if you don't notice.
This will probably end up bothering you in the end, but I have to try. Even if I have to send a birthday card and a six pack of Jamaican Me Happy to your house just to know you received the wish, I will do it. That's what friends are for, right?
I promise I won't hold on forever.
It may seem I'm contradicting my previous promise, but hear me out. I can't forget your birthday or the day we realized we were going to be best friends. It's engraved in my mind by the amount of laughing tears that were spilled those days. But I promise I won't hold on. I will let you go so you can make new friends when you and your better half are ready. Although I'll be hoping that you'll want to try again, I won't hold on.
I promise to never spill your secrets.
I really hope you promise to never spill mine. We could do some real damage with the amount of dirt we have on each other. But as a former best friend, I promise to keep those secrets hidden in the back of my mind locked.
Finally, I promise to always be happy for you.
How can I not be happy for you? You finally found the magic in the world that we have all been dreaming of. If that means we are no longer capable of having dinner together and gossiping about girls' eyebrows, then it's a sacrifice I'm willing to make. Congratulations on your relationship. I'm happy for you and I'll always miss you.
