I am as basic as they come. There is absolutely no denying it. I am so drawn into mainstream media that I could tell you at least five celebrity current events at any given moment... any... given... moment. I also go to a very "non-mainstream" school. My UPS friends are all WAY more hip than I am, but still somehow tolerate me and I think I have finally discovered the reason why--I am a MUCH better actress than I thought. So, here are 10 things that I actively suppress in order to make my friends think I'm cool... even though I'm not.

1. I worship E News.

I follow not one, not two, but THREE E! Network Instagram accounts and look through each of them every day. Celebrity gossip is my crack.

2. I am highly emotionally invested in TV characters...

The Vampire Diaries characters are my life. I could tell you every up and down of the Damon-Elena-Stefan-Caroline love saga from episode one. I'm very invested in them and definitely cry every time Damon gives up on being good enough for Elena.

3. I really enjoy Top 40 music.

It's not that I have no idea what good music is and only listen to Top 40 (I have my weird obscure music tastes too!), I just really enjoy pop because it's fun and I can belt it in my car and it doesn't always have to mean something.

4. I still read a lot of YA Fiction.

Like a lot. I read Sarah Dessen books even though I am absolutely not a 16 year old girl anymore and thus can't really relate to any of her characters--I still love them.

5. I'm a hopeless romantic...

...and still day dream about Prince Charming sweeping me off my feet and away from whatever hells my life contains at that point. Just Prince Charming is a little less "Prince Charming" now and a little more "Prince Edgy-interesting-deep conversation-artistic talent Charming."

6. I know the lyric to every single Taylor Swift song.

I do. And I'm lying when I say I'm not sure what song that lyric is from... because I do... I don't like the fact that I do... but I do.

7. I still have a Build-A-Bear collection.

I still like going to Build-A-Bear... I might be seven years old and just look 22...

8. My tattoo absolutely is a One Direction reference.

It also means something else, but like duh... it's a One Direction reference. But not in front of any of my "cool friends" oh hell no. I deny that like crazy when someone asks me that in front of them... and it's happened... more than once.

9. I am 100% still a JoBroHoe.

My childhood room is still full of all my JoBro memorabilia and all the CDs. When I was 13 every square inch of my room was covered in posters and pictures of the Jonas Brothers. I know their birthdays, favorite colors, middle names and too many creepy things to list. I know its weird. I know. But I have no shame.

10. I'm extremely self-conscious about all of these things.

These parts of my personality all seem so shallow and lame and young, but these are not all that I am. I am so much more than the dorky things I love. I can keep up with my "cool friends," but suppressing this side of me kinda sucks. But I'd rather keep it inside than look like a loser and be taken less seriously.

Granted, most of my so called "cool friends" know these things about me and still love me anyway, but there are still things I keep locked away in my brain and don't talk about until I get a phone call from my home best friend who can keep up with the crazy. Then I get it out of my system and go back to acting like I'm "cool"--whatever that means.