We will all come across someone who will have all the qualities of the one we want to spend the rest of our lives with, and for some of us, that one person will continue to be the one throughout our life. But there will also be times, where we will lose the one who we thought was the one and will soon realize they were just another step in the right direction. My last relationship showed me that I deserved love and compassion and not just another emotionally unstable relationship. So this letter is to him. To the man who helped me learn more about myself and what I want in life:

You had every quality and more than I have learned that I want in the next person to walk into my life. I want someone who will support my every wish and dream, even if it is a stressful liftoff. With me going into Education, there will be times where I will be overwhelmed with grading and getting ready for observations to ensure I will keep my job for another year. I want someone who will understand that I am not perfect and come with a lot of baggage, but when you get all through that, there is a heart of gold in my chest. You helped me learn that the baggage I carry on my back does not define me or who I am. I am more than my past. You showed me what love is and how someone can mean the world even if it is only in your world in my head. Knowing you are getting ready to move onto the next step of your life without me by your side is a bit upsetting, but at the same time, rewarding because I know that I helped you get there as well. I played a role much like everyone else in your life has or will play and that is all that matters. I showed you what love could be and how long distance relationships are tough, even if it was only for a few months. Having you by my side every day to not seeing you as often was difficult and still is. But I take that newly developed free time and get to explore myself and see where I am going with myself. I get to focus on my education and desire to teach little kids the wonders of this world and how it can bring amazing things to us, such as it did to me. It brought you into my life to show me that true love really does exist. Even if we had ended on some not so happy terms and are still struggling to stay friends in this mess, you are still teaching me that anything is possible. We can still count on each other, but also that I can be an independent person. I don't need someone to rely on for my happiness anymore. I can make my own happiness whether it be small things like making a new friend to big things like getting news about getting into this college.

And with this letter to him, I have learned a lot about myself and how to deal with the emotions rushing through my body. There will come a point in everyone's life where you think you will forever be the lonely cat lady with an abundance of cats meowing at you for your attention. That will not be you, it just feels like it will be because you lost something so dear to your heart. You will want to fill the void left inside of you, using whoever or whatever to fill it. Just know, that isn't a substantial reason for moving forward. You should want to move forward for yourself and for the future that you can build. Life is going to throw a million curve balls at you, and you won't always know what to do with them, and that is okay. Life is trying to test you and make you become the best version of yourself and one day, you will appreciate it. So, to the man who could have been the one, thank you for teaching me more about myself and helping me reach outside my comfort zones. I wish you nothing but the best in your future and hope you find love as crazy as ours again.