If you know me at all, you'd know that I'm not the biggest social butterfly of the bunch. I spend the majority of my time overworking myself between my three jobs, class schedule, and participation in three different e-boards for clubs. When I'm not doing those things, I'm almost always spending time alone, in my bed, recovering from the earlier day's events.
Although I was never incredibly socially active, when I was diagnosed as chronically ill with lots of symptoms that affect my everyday life it made me want to socialize even less than I already was. Because of my illness, it became virtually impossible for me to make any new friends.
And then I met some of the most incredible people I've ever talked to in the entire world, and I haven't even physically met them. My two best friends are named Kaylie and Sarah, and it's true that the three of us have never met in person. Two of us live in the United States, although we are currently on opposite coasts, and Sarah is a whole ocean away in the United Kingdom. But despite our distance, despite never physically being in the same room as each other as of this moment in time, I consider these two women to be two of the most important people in my life right now.
I wake up every morning to a plethora of texts in our three-way group chat, pictures documenting our lives together, stories about what's happened during our days, and of course some of the funniest and ugliest snapchats I've ever seen. As silly as you might think it is for me to consider two people who I've never even met to be so close to me, I wouldn't change it for the world.
These girls pick me up when I'm down and give me pep talks when I need them, which is often. They know how to piss me off, but they also know how to make me laugh when I seriously need to. They're my go-to girls for picking out outfits or getting approval before ordering new clothes, something that I really haven't had before I started talking to them non-stop. They call me crazy for my hopes and dreams and for pushing myself as far as I do, even though they also support me through everything in trying to do with my life.
Most importantly, they understand to a degree what I go through on a daily basis with my illness. I can wake up with a rash on my leg, send them a picture, and they'll probably have something to say about it that's not judgmental at all. Whether it's personal life drama or problems or things with our illness, we can relate to each other in some way on almost every platform.
Isn't that what friendship is all about? Why does it matter that we've never physically been in the same room with one another? Personally, these girls are a million times better than any friend that I've ever had in real life.
These are the ladies that I would want to be my maids of honor in my wedding, godchildren to my future kids, and the ladies I want by my side for the rest of my life. I already consider Sarah's little girl to be more than just a friend's baby, but more my niece. They are my sisters, from different misters and different countries throughout this big bad world.
It doesn't matter where you're from, or whether or not you're physically hanging out with them on a regular basis. The fact that I have two amazing ladies in my life that I can go to for anything is what matters to me. I wouldn't trade these ladies and our outrageous, deep and inappropriate conversations for the world.
It's okay if you don't understand where we're coming from. I know for a fact that my parents freak out when I tell them about my "internet friends," and they don't believe that they're an important part of my life. It doesn't matter to me if you approve-- I approve. We approve. And we care for each other just like any group of best friends who see each other on a regular basis do (if not possibly more).
One day we will all meet up, and it will be incredibly perfect like we always say that it will be. I have plans to one day travel to England and meet Sarah's perfect daughter, and our fabulous Manhattan meetup will hopefully become a reality in the somewhat near future. But even if I never meet these ladies, they will continue to hold an incredibly special place in my heart.