With your uncertainty and games, I realized I needed to make some changes in my life. Looking back at it now, you were a major part of my life and you most likely have no clue the impact you had. You were so many life lessons wrapped in one, so I wanted to say thank you. Thank you for the long delay in texts that kept me wondering if you were even still interested in me.

Thank you for making me second guess my own self-worth when you talked to other girls in front of me, yet you kept me thinking we were still moving forward.Thank you for making me cry because I was beginning to realize you were making me miserable. Thank you for making me slowly feel like I was going insane. Without the pain you brought into my life, I couldn't have taken the steps in becoming the person I ultimately wanted to be.

With your help, I began to love and find myself.

I realized I needed to put myself first. I began to read more books, ate the foods I loved and laughed more. I started to smile for no reason. I started to tell myself I was beautiful in the mirror and started to gradually believe it each day. I found this confidence that I always desired, but I never thought I had in myself.

I began to love the person I am instead of feeling ashamed whenever you didn't text back. I started to create my own happiness instead of looking for it from you, I realized I control my own destiny. I went on walks, just sitting down and appreciating the beauty of nature that's all around us. I would turn the volume up as loud as it could go in my car and sing my favorite song.

I would smile more at other girls because I realized the pain I once felt from you, they could be feeling the exact same way. The voice in my head began to say more positive things about myself and others around me, versus constantly putting myself and others down.

The way you treated me made me realized I needed to treat myself better.

You opened my eyes to a whole new world, I began to slowly mature. I realized I deserve someone who responds to my text messages because they are looking forward to receiving them. I realized I don't always have to try to be perfect and constantly wonder if they still like me. I will now use the feeling of "walking on egg shells" that I had with you to know that I'm in the wrong relationship.

I started to figure out my own likes and dislikes, and who I was looking for in another individual. I soon discovered that the individual I was looking for wasn't you anymore. I wanted someone who builds me up, instead of tearing me down.

Someone who can turn the volume up and belt their favorite song out. Someone would brings me tears of laughter and not tears of doubt. Someone who can be up front and tell someone how they truly feel. Someone who doesn't play games, someone who's fearless.

With the insanity you brought into my life, I thought I lost myself for good. Throughout this experience the only thing I lost was you, but in the end I found the person who I always wanted to be. Thank you for letting me down, so I could rebuild myself back up.

Thank you for making me realize I'm a pretty great person.

Sincerely,

Me