It's finals week. It's my last finals week of my last full semester as an undergraduate. To say I'm scared is understatement. I'm completely and utterly terrified for the big-girl world. I've been in college for almost six years now, so I should be ready to graduate, right? No. I'm not.
I'm scared of who I'm going to become
I don't wan to be that bitter graduate who still looks back at college and wishes they were still there because they peaked in college. I'm scared of everything the future holds for me.
I'm scared I'm going to go back to my old ways
I've learned so much independence and have learned so much about myself and what I want. I'm scared that without the support of all my friends I've made in college constantly around me, I'm going to slip back into who I was before I came to this school
I'm scared I'm not gooing to follow my dreams
I know what career I want but I'm scared I'm going to find some OK job that isn't what I want to do right after I graduate beccause it was the only option for me. I'm scared I'm going to get sucked into staying in the same place for the rest of my life and feel trapped.
I'm scared I'm going to fail
I'm scared that I'm not as ready as I think I am for my dream job. Let's say I do get my dream job right away. I'm scared that I'll mess up and fail in my career.
I'm scared I'm going to change as a person
I know life is all about people changing, but I love who I am today. I'm scared it is only because of the friends I'm surrounded by here. They're the ones who help me be a better person every single day and without them, I'm scared I'm going to lose myself, and my confidence.
I'm scared I won't be happy
Before I came to this school I was in a very, very dark place. I'm a lot happier here than in my hometown. I'm scared I'm going to end up hating my life again.