Hi,
It's me. I know we haven't talked in a long time-- it feels like a lifetime.
I just wanted to say I do miss you; not as much as I use to but when times get hard I remember how amazing it was to have a friend like you.
I miss how you'd stand up for me even when I was completely wrong-- not very many people do that. I miss laughing at stupid things on the internet until four in the morning. I miss being able to just sit and watch tv and not talk because we knew everything going on each other's life. I miss having someone I didn't hide anything from. Since you've been absent I tend to not tell anyone anything.. But that's how this all started isn't it? The ex best friend thing.
I do miss you but you should also know you really hurt me. You replaced me and made me feel like an outsider in your life. Remember when I broke up with my boyfriend and you didn't know for two weeks-- because not talking for two weeks became a normal thing for us. I was completely shut out. I tried talking to you but no response, I tried hearing from you but nothing. For me it wasn't easy, but for you it seemed as though you hadn't changed a single thing in your life.
I think about your happiness, I hope you're happy. It hurts to think you could be happier with a different best friend. I do believe God allows people in your life for just a few chapters though, so this must have been the end of ours. Life's such an interesting thing-- it throws so many things at us.
The crazy thing is I don't know you anymore. A person I once knew like the back of my hand is now completely absence from my constant thoughts and life. I wonder what you're like honestly, do you still laugh at the same things; or are our jokes no longer funny. You have tattoos I don't know the meaning of, stories with people I've never heard of and a life I'm not a part of.
Two years ago I wouldn't believe we are where we’re at. We were suppose to be each other's maid of honor, each other's life long friend-- we put our friendship in every movie and I think that's why it's so hard to understand what went wrong. Real life rarely follows along the lines of movies, something I'm realizing a little later in life. People aren't there for you in the way we wish they'd be, people give up, people put themselves above you and honestly it's okay. It is life and it will go on.
I'm no longer mad, or sad or even confused. Things happen for a reason, I'm just thankful to say I once had a friend like you.